Saturday 23 May 2015

Kalau aku buta cinta, kenapa kau yang pergi..?

Menyanyiku, kau tatap,
Tak sangka, yang tertarik itu kau,
tak sangka juga, ayat cinta kau,
Untuk aku.

Jalan cerita kita beda,
Kau ceria tanpa aku,
Aku punya tak siapa,
Aku bercinta pernah ranap dek cinta kedua,
Malah...ada pula yang ketiga.

Kau datang,
Kata kau, kau tak pernah kenal gadis sepertiku.

Kata aku?

Kau, sama saja seperti yang lainnya.

Lirik aku terlepas dari memandang,
Tak ingin lagi aku dengan cinta,
Tak ingin lagi ada api dalam hati.

Seketika...
Kau berlalu..

Aku pula ternanti.
Walau lirik mata aku bukan memandang tepat ke hati kau.

Cerita kita masih beda,
Kau kini, jasad lain yang punya, tapi...

Aku tahu, jiwa kau, masih buatku,
Walau se nurani mana pun jasad yang pegang hati kau,
Kau masih dan tetap dalam doa aku.

September 10, musibah datang.
Tak lagi utuh berdiri sendiri.

Cerita aku, juga cerita kau, pernah menjadi bedtime story buat si cilik adik.

September 15,
Tenatnya aku.

Tak mampu lagi celik. Terbau wangian yang sama sebelum kau berlalu dulu.
Aku tahu,
Kau datang,
Tanpa suara,
Aku tahu..itu kau.

Marah mungkin,
Tiada se sisip suara pun darimu..

Sampai habis nyawa pun,
Kau takkan pernah tahu,
Kau yang pergi..bukan aku.

Kerana duka lama,
Aku tolak cerita 'kita'.

Kini, bahagia kau ku dengar.
Dan aku?
Hanya mampu melihat dari jauh,
Walau aku hanya si buta yang melirikkan lagu,
Tanpa tahu, kau melihat ku.

He loves me enough, to let me go.

Here is the story of EL and JAY. Wrote it in the poem form. Kalau guna cerita, panjanggggg. So.....let's begin.

EL:     A good lass.
JAY:  A vigorous guy.


We listened to each other,
We cried, we eat, we moves to one place to another.
We seem like changing the dark to the lighter.

You said to me,
"EL, even if I'm not here with you, i will always in your heart",
I got mad.
Something wrong.

I'm not pleased him to go away from me,
For i need someone to hold onto me.
I have no mother. No father. No sister and brother.

The day that i know the dark has come to replace the light,
I changed my path,
I get myself ready,
I care less bout you.

I get mad easily,
Easier than before,
You call my name,
"EL, don't go anywhere, i need you here"

When i came home,
Still, you were lying on our bed.

I thought of nothing,
I get mad, because i can't depend on you,
Anymore.

I'm egoistic,
I do remember,
I said this to you.
"JAY, i will always be with you, i will get through anything, just for you"

I'm not that good,
And i'm not guessing on it,
I did tell myself, how stupid i am.

I ignored you,
I leave you home, alone
I cooked you nothing,
I care you lessen.

On october 15, you leave me.
All white clothes' people come to our house.
Pray for you.
Bring your body to the "KUBUR"

And that day,
They were buried 'us' together,
You bring all the heart of mine,
You bring along all the memories that we had together.

And that day,
I get a letter written by you.
Your sister gave it to me.

"Hey cutie pie, how's life without me? I know I'm troubling you that much. But please smile. I regret on not taking a good medicine, so that i can take care of you. El, i'm only 35 years old, and now, i'm dead. My dear darling, you're only 26. Shine bright. Be young forever. Don't get sick of life. I will wait you in Heaven. Pray for me. ALWAYS. Oh, i've forgiven you for not cooked for me, not smiled to me, and..did not wish me a goodnight wished. I've forgive you sayang. Thanks for being a great wife. Just..pray for us. I love you forever. "

And now i know,
He's happy up there,
He forgives me,
He never let me down,
He's everything,
Hw will always be my soulmate, my husband, and my good friend.

He loves me enough to let me go.

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